Saturday, September 12, 2009

Jared, and other stories

"It's Craig!" resounded the cries of half a dozen little boys and one girl. They thronged about the Fairwood entrance sign as Craig and I returned from work last week, jumping up and down with excitement. They had a story that couldn't wait to be told!
 
"Guess what?" one of the lads cried, I think it might have been Ian. "Peter was in the middle of the road and a man drove up and opened his door and said, 'Get out of the road!'" He said this as if it were the funniest news in the world.
 
"Yeah, he said, 'Get out of the road!'" Peter echoed, grinning from ear to ear.
 
"Do your parents know that you're playing in the road?" Craig asked the recent five-year-old, including everyone else in his address.
 
"Uhuh," nine-year-old Michael replied. "We're playing with this tire and that tire," he added, pointing at tires that seemed to have a transparent quality to our ignorant eyes.
 
Hmm. Sound logical.
 
"Okay, well I need to go now," Craig said, after telling Stephen and Davie to stop trying to open the his car door (he locked it just to be safe). "Move back from the car, please!"
 
"Hey, why did you go backwards?" Lydia called out after us, after Craig started his car on a hill.
 
"It's called driving standard," Craig replied quietly to me since Lydia wouldn't have heard or understood anyway.
 
It wasn't long before this experience got me thinking about the exciting things that I did with my passel of friends when I was their age. My passel may not have been as large, but we certainly managed to have great times. From building a teepee with the Adams boys to playing orphanage in the sleeping attic during the Feast to constructing a "house" behind the cottage, we built memories that have long outlasted our flimsy hovels.
 
Who was in my passel of friends, you might ask? Well, mostly it was Jayna, Laura, Jared, and me, with an occasional visitor like Marie or Debbie or Cara thrown in there somewhere. Jayna was older than I by two years, and then came Laura, then me, and finally Jared who was two years younger than I. With Laura being in the middle and the most sanguine (or the most "fun" in this case), Jayna and I fought over Laura almost constantly, or so it seemed. We always wanted to be the one to sit next to Laura, or to sleep next to her during the occasional sleepover, so we finally figured out that the only way to make everybody happy was to invariably put Laura in the middle. I can still see this reflected even today by looking at the picture I drew of the three of us when I was five during Ernestine's art class. There's Laura, smack dab in the middle right where she belonged in order to make the world a better place because it would be lacking two extra grumpy girls.
 
Laura was the sparkle and the peacemaker. Things just weren't quite fun if she wasn't around, and Jayna and I often couldn't get along with each other without her. Why we had this conflict between ourselves, I couldn't say. Clyde frequently claimed that Jayna was a brat, but I think that's a little unfair because he was more than a little biased towards me, and I know that I was never an angel, although my temperament has always been pretty phlegmatic.
 
I still remember one time when Jayna stomped off and refused to talk to me. She retreated to the cement ledge right next to the sharp corner in between the Main House and the Dining Hall and perched there sulking. I imagine I must have been being annoying, but all I can remember is feeling hurt and a little afraid of her. Laura, our middleman as always, followed her and asked her what was wrong. Jayna replied in an almost cheerful voice, "I don't want to play with Kayla!" It wasn't long before I was running off to snatch my mother from staff meeting so I could have a good cry and receive a little comfort. Shortly after that, Julie, Jayna's mom and my cousin, came by and told Jayna that it was time to go home and Laura and I had to leave. "Tattletale," Jayne muttered darkly at me. "What are you talking about?" Julie asked. "Kayla didn't tell me anything." I felt like crowing. I hadn't said a thing, and Jayna had given herself away! The hurt was almost worth it for that one golden triumph.
 
To be fair, Jayna and I didn't always dislike each other. In fact, somewhere in there Jayna seemed to change drastically and I remember her telling me very sincerely that she knew she hadn't always been nice to me but she really liked me. I was reconciled with her at once from that point on, and even though I doubt we completely lacked squabbles, we remained great friends. After all, who can't help but liking someone who gives you a Belle doll?
 
I mentioned that there was a fourth person in our pack: Jared. Why haven't I said more about him? Because he is the one I want to talk the most about. Although in my young brain I qualified Cara and Laura as my best friends (chums like Klara, Meredith, and Steph didn't really enter the picture for me until I was about seven--this is the five to six era), Jared was my best buddy. For some inexplicable reason, Jared practically worshiped the ground I walked upon. Perhaps it was because I was the closest person to his age who actually chose to play with him, I couldn't say. After awhile, I grew tired of his repeated invitations to "pway," as he called it. No, my brain wanted to be fried by mindless entertainment, so Jared finally figured out that sometimes the best way to lure me down to his house was to invite me to watch a movie. Then, when the movie was part way through, he would spring his request on me hoping I would give in and play. He might have succeeded once or twice, but my corrupt little mind was too thirsty for entertainment. After all, I was allowed to watch movies at his house that were all but forbidden in my own. Movies like The Little Mermaid and Aladdin weren't encouraged in our house because of the immodest female characters in them, but my parents didn't seem to have a problem with my imbibing these films in other homes.
 
However, I did still "pway" with Jared now and then, and also enjoyed it. Sure, Jared often did follow me around until I grew so irritated I would hide from him, but most of the time I was more than happy to play. Unfortunately, my least angelic side also took some advantage of his devotion to me. One time I remember I wanted to play with a certain toy that Jared wouldn't let me play with. Infuriated, I stood up and declared that I was going home. "Noooo!" Jared whimpered, relinquishing the toy. This might have happened on several occasions for all I remember, but I specifically recall one time when I was not appeased by his pleadings for me to stay. So I stormed off down the hall to the cottage's side door and stood there before going out, fuming. Jared followed quietly, and approaching me with his brown eyes large and mournful, he said, "Kaya, I wuv you." I still remember almost every detail of his expression and his tone of voice, and every time my heart melts at the very memory of it. If I'm right, I think my heart melted the first time too, and I relented and couldn't stay angry at him anymore.
 
As you might have gathered, at three and four Jared had a few pronunciation difficulties which wasn't too surprising due to his age. Because of this, we three girls were all termed "Jaya," "Wawa," and "Kaya." After awhile our titles were advanced to "JayNA," "Wara," and "Kaywa." I remember one time his manner of speech proved quite an amusement for Cara and Ryan, who one time when they were over kept plaguing Jared by asking him how old he was. "Fwee," he responded, and they would laugh and say, "You're free?" "No, FWEE!" Jared would exclaim. I think I felt bad for him at the time, but I wasn't really sure what to do about it.
 
Jared had other likes besides friends like me. For one thing, he loved killer whales, and had quite a few of them in his toy collection. Other joys for him were his thirst for "moke" (aka "milk"), "pop" (the term makes sense now that I remember that their family has some roots in Michigan), and an intense liking for mustard sandwiches. I never could and probably never will understand this strange attraction between him and those oozing yellow treats. My complete inability to understand this is probably a result of my never ever having liked mustard one whit. But it was Jared, and I loved him despite his oddities, even when I was a little grossed out when he would pull out the milk or pop from the fridge and start drinking straight from the bottle.
 
One of my favorite memories of Jared is when he and I delivered May baskets together. I think actually that it was after his family had moved away, but he had returned to visit with his mom for a late birthday celebration for my grandmother. Anyway, I had heard of the practice of May baskets and had taken a fancy to trying out the tradition. So my mom baked a bunch of chocolate chip cookies and Craig made up some green and yellow paper baskets to put them in, and Jared and I set off on our secret mission. In order to be sneaky, we decided to cut across the ball field to gain access to the apartment buildings (I think the Passes were living there at the time). On our way, we came across several piles of deer manure. At least, since I was walking ahead I was the one who came across them, and every time I did I would turn to warn Jared. And invariably, every time I did this, Jared would stop dead in his tracks, and while still carefully clutching his load of May baskets, he would slowly tilt both his ankles outward simultaneously, going bowlegged in order to examine the undersides of his shoes. The picture was so repeatedly comical that I can hardly keep myself from smiling every time I think of it.
 
Other highlights with Jared, Jayna, and Laura included the time we built a "house" and had Sabbath meeting in it with Jayna and Jared's parents (I still remember Jared praying and thanking God that it was his birthday tomorrow). Another time was when we played on Jayna and Jared's roof. Jayna and Laura were even brave enough to stand on the dormers (I think that's what they're called) and dance as they made up some cool song about being on top of the mountain. I remember admiring them for their bravery and improvisational skills, and pretty much every other "cool" thing about them. I even remember thinking that everybody liked Jayna and Laura better that me because they were skinny and I was fat (this is almost laughable because although I might not have been quite as bony as they were at that age, I was never very close to obtaining the feature of obesity). 
 
Anyway, sometimes I wonder if our parents always knew that we were playing on a roof. At least I was always under the impression that Jim and Julie knew what we were doing and were okay with it so I don't think I was purposefully being naughty. The greatest time we had on the roof was shortly before Jayna and Jared moved. There was some sort of going away party for them that day, and we were playing on the roof when Marie and James (church friends who were my and Jared's ages, respectively) came along looking for us, so we all hid up there and made ghost sounds. After all, Marie had always believed in Santa Claus, so we figured that she was superstitious enough to believe in ghosts, right? And Marie and James even acted like they were a little scared, but when we told them later, Marie said that she had known all along what we were doing. As for whether that was really true, I guess we'll never know.
 
I've mentioned a few highlights of our times together, but there was one that sticks out far above the rest. What type of event could have embedded itself so firmly in my childish memory? Why, an unbirthday party of course! Although the idea first tendrilled out from the movie Alice in Wonderland, I first heard of its arrival at Fairwood up on the ball field during a youth convention. We were hanging around near the snack bar lines (a commonly haunted spot at that age since almost our only involvement in the ways of the ancient youth was in joining them in the snack bar line) when Jayna announced to me that THEY were having an unbirthday party at her house. Although she might not have said so in so many words, the strong implication was that I wasn't invited. Then Julie bent over and motioned Jayna to her for a brief whispering session. Immediately afterwards, Jayna, in a more subdued tone, politely asked me if I would like to come to the unbirthday party as well. Elated, I accepted.
 
What is involved in an unbirthday party, you might ask? I'm not sure, but our party was the best unbirthday party I'd ever been to. We sang the Alice in Wonderland song (Jared, not quite sure of all the words, loudly echoed the words "to you, to you, to you, to you!"), opened presents (I still have the jingly pearly white bracelet Julie gave me), and blew out candles on a bunt cake. This part was probably the trickiest because we all were supposed to blow out the candles at the same time, but whenever we counted to three Jared kept on blowing them out ahead of time, so we had to relight the candles and start all over again. Finally, the crowning event after blowing out the candles was eating the cake. And since this was an unconventional kids only (plus Julie) party, we got to do what I have never done since then--eat the cake straight off the pan with our bare hands! Ah yes, although I was a little timid at first to be so completely devoid of the normal rules of manners and cleanliness, I dug in with gusto right along side of Laura and Jared, stuffing the cake into our mouths as fast as we could so we could grab more before it was all gone. Jayna only was the one who had a fit at this part (in retrospect I can't say I blame her), so she ate her cake on a separate plate. While we were doing the cake full justice in our delightfully barbaric manner, who should walk into the room but Darla! If you're wondering who Darla is, I can't really say because I was never really sure myself. My impressions at that young age were that she was about Julie's age and friends with her, had curly hair and might have always worn lipstick, and she smoked. I knew this because the lodge room she stayed in stank to high heaven of cigarette smoke even after she left Fairwood. Well, she had always been friendly with us little kids so we all liked her in a way (especially Jayna), but I think she was more than a little taken aback to walk into the room and see us ragamuffins clawing at our food as fast as we could. Laura especially got a kick out of the slight shock registered on Darla's face, and it was she who actually pointed it out to us . . . I probably wouldn't have noticed, though I almost stopped eating when I saw her. But Laura didn't care, if anything she dug into the cake with even more zest just for the joy of showing Darla that manners didn't matter at OUR party! And that was probably the crowning event of my childhood with those three friends.
 
It is strange to me how four children can be so close at a certain era of their lives, yet choose so completely different paths that they end up branching out to different parts of the forest. Jared is turning sixteen this month and I barely know him now, as much as I would like to. However, even though I know that now we all don't agree on many issues, I sense a bond that links me to those three, even if I do nothing but notice it and even if they never notice it at all. But whatever happens, I think there will still be a special place in my heart with the names Jayna, Laura, and Jared written there.

Monday, September 07, 2009

When I grow up

I was going through a bunch of old school notebooks in the attic recently
when I came across a poem that I wrote when I was about twelve. Here it
is:


I used to wonder what I would be
When I grew up, and what I would see
Would I go into space and see the moon?
Or travel to Africa and see a baboon?
If I were to be an actress,
Famous is what I would be,
But as I thought,
I knew it was not
The thing that was meant for me.
A spy! Should I be a spy?
A spy for the FBI
But though I knew not why,
I knew I could not be a spy.

Olympist? Artist? Musician?
I could not be any of those,
I wish I could be an author,
A writer of all good prose.
Wonderful books I shall write,
And much interest I hope they will farm,
So I'll write and I'll fight until dawn comes in bright
And vict'ry is under my arm!
By the end of my writing career
Many medals will I have won,
But now that I think, an idea comes clear,
A mom would also be fun.
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Thursday, June 04, 2009

Treasure hunting

 
*Beep*beep*beep*beep*
 
        The strident voice of my alarm clock rudely interrupted my dream. Sighing, I turned it off, wishing I could go back to the world I'd just been in. What had I been dreaming? Let's go back . . . .
 
        Whoah. That was a little too far back, but I guess this part is fairly important too. I'm reading my book in bed, around eleven p.m., pretty soon before I turn out my light. What book is it, you ask? It is The Count of Monte Cristo, which I am reading at last! I haven't gotten very far into it (compared to its dramatic length), but I'm lapping it up hungrily since it's been a whole twenty-four hours since I've read it. I don't want to spoil it for anyone who hasn't read it, but this guy is just now telling the main guy about his vast treasure, hidden on an island, and half of it is all his, or all of it if the first guy dies. I finish the chapter, turn out my light, and sink into oblivion . . .
 
        Fast-forward past the dream in which I'm acting in some Frog Prince play. I wasn't the frog or the princess, but I was sitting on some fake lily pad with my cousin Aaron, and that's all I can remember . . .
 
        We're going treasure hunting! We (I felt instinctively that this was a collective group, perhaps the Bibleschool and some of my family, although the only people I remember actually seeing are my dad, Craig, and maybe Josh briefly) are exploring a cave--a clean, spacious, sunny cave . . . the walls almost are a bluish-white. Somewhere in here, we know from being told by our friend from my book, is the treasure, hidden behind three doors. We come to an area that we almost think is water; but no, it's fine azure powder spread out over a good-sized area, and we have to be careful not to breathe it in as we walk over it. I find a tunnel, and after crawling through the narrow, though well-lit space, I discover what we've been looking for: three wooden doors in the wall. Behind one door I can hear loud knocking, on another I see red writing--does it say "I bequeath this treasure to you" ? Before we can investigate behind these doors, however, we must make sure there is no one else around. Craig goes off to search for tourists in the area.
 
        Sadly, there are tourists, and we realize that this is a public national park cave with staff attendants bobbing about here and there. Not exactly a nice private place to open up treasure. As I think about it, I realize that I found the tunnel and the special doors with very little difficulty, and if people come in here all the time, why haven't they found it? Then it dawns on me that everyone HAD found the tunnel and the "secret" doors, but everyone had just assumed that it was just a publicity stunt or featured attraction, resulting in the fact that no one had ever bothered to see what was behind the doors. Even so, we must wait for everybody to leave, so we look around.
 
        Near the tunnel, we settle down in an extremely large, cavernous room. In this room is a large crystal blue lake, and in the middle of the lake we can see a place where a huge stalagmite and a stalactite meet. The edges of this sunny lake are very shallow and very cold. Little boats take tourists out to the center of the lake where there is a deeper, swimming-pool-sized area where there are hot springs and it's delightful to swim. We watch people splash about and come up to rest on the edges where it's shallower, but since it's so cold they soon dive back in.
 
        In the meantime, we don't want the cave staff to know that we're here, so I dart about and spy on them. A bunch of them are talking together--no, they're conversing in song, just like in a musical! (No, they did not sing "Can I Have Napkin Please")
 
        Eventually, the tourists leave and the cave staff are closing up, but we have to be extra sneaky so they don't see us and kick us out.
 
        Finally, everyone is gone. Now it is just Daddy, Craig, and yours truly. We enter the tunnel. We are equipped with various gifts from our friend so that we can open each of the doors: one door requires a door handle in our possession, another a key, and the third a piece of paper or map that is supposed to help us open it. We go to the door that we were instructed to open first; it's the preliminary door, so to speak. It swings open . . . . what could the treasure be? As I wonder, breathless, my eyes light on the biggest Nikon digital SLR camera I've ever seen. I'm serious! This thing was like the granddaddy of digital cameras; it was about a foot wide and the lens was about two feet long! (you can tell that I've been thinking about SLR cameras way too much lately) As soon as we take this sight in, it starts to roll away on a conveyor belt. At first I wonder if it is a signal that we should follow it, but the hole it's going toward is too small, and somehow I'm not too worried that we're going to lose it. It's being conducted to a safe place for us.
 
        Next thing we know, we see this machine (behind the same door) that starts to spit out a multicolored assortment of socks and underwear! As the stuff cranks out, we're supposed to grab what we want before the machine sucks it back into itself. The funny thing is that as this happened, we didn't seen anything odd about this "solemn" occurrence. It wasn't as if it was the real treasure, but the machine was equipping us with a good supply of things that we might need as we stayed for a long time to investigate the rest of the treasure.
 
        I marveled, wondering what would come next. What could be behind the other two doors? We knew this was just the preliminary door and that the other doors would probably have the real treasure. What could it be?
 
*Beep*beep*beep*beep*
 
I guess we'll never find out.

Sunday, May 03, 2009

"Lady, Come Down!"

"Come down! Lady, come down!"

These are the words that I'm sure are wafting through your mind as you see that I have yet to post anything worth reading. Actually, these are musical words that are wafting through my computer speakers as my brain attempts to stretch from its frozen posture and type something sensible. Well, "sensible" is not exactly the right words. Since when do I ever write anything sensible? But I am rambling, as I am wont to do, which just proves my point at my utter lack of sensibility at times. And now I am starting to lose you as your own brain yawns quite perceptibly (don't deny it!). The fact is, I would like to post something about my life for once, and I feel like it's been so long that I hardly know how to do it any more. And the events I was thinking of describing are fast slipping into the past, and I don't know if I can make any of it worth reading or not. But I shall try. And the joy of it is, I don't need to feel like I'm enslaving anybody to read this because you are perfectly free to click me off of your screen forever.

I might as well start with Service Week. Particularly, I shall describe what we did on the fun days like to the White Mountains.

A pervasively chilly Thursday morning dawned, causing us to eagerly anticipate our planned hiking ventures. Perhaps we weren't exactly leaping for joy, but most of us were quite game still. After driving north for a couple of hours (our time throughout the day was featured with pleasures such as Madlibs and Authors), we all piled out of the van, braced for anything. I belatedly regretted not having any leggings on, but I slipped on my pair of Wilson swimming trunks that I got at Salvation Army in Florida for additional layering under my knee-length corduroy skirt. The fact that my supposedly gorgeous culottes are really men's swimming trunks is supposed to be a deep dark secret. . . but we all know that the internet is a very private mode of communication that won't let information leak out to undesired places. Anyway, happy that I had let my ever-wise mother talk me into bringing two sweatshirts instead of one, I completed my stylish outfit with a huge navy sweatshirt tied around my waist, thanks to Diane's generosity. She was staying in the van. Armed with this formidable opponent to the threatening weather, I debarked with my fellow hikers, ploughing through spring mud for a mile or so on up Rattlesnake Mountain, singing snatches of songs such as "Beautiful in elevation, the joy of all the earth, is Rattlesnake Mountain." I suggested the lyrics to Craig for his well-known composition, and he took to it very quickly, singing more of it than I did. I shouldn't be surprised if he posts the words as alternative lyrics on his website. Maybe Andrea and Gretchen will sing it at the next convention. Think of how inspiring that would be!

Well, eventually we attained the summit. And for not being a very difficult hike, the view was fantastic. Dropping right off of a cliff of sorts, we commanded a view of multiple lakes for miles around.

"Guess what?" I exclaimed to my cousin, Aaron. "My God made all of that!"

It was certainly worthy of some awe for His handiwork.

After we had been admiring the view for awhile, we had the privilege of meeting Davy Crockett and Kit Carson. I didn't realize that those two had ever joined up together, but apparently Davy and Kit were buddies. Well, Ben and Peter--ahem!--I mean Davy and Kit had set up camp with their wagons looped together when they were attacked by wolves! Fearsome creatures they were, each with a different colored mane--brown, blonde, and red. Howling and snarling, they attacked from all sides, but Davy and Kit were able to beat them back with torches until the wolves retreated with their tails between there legs.

"And then," Ben said, his voice intense, commanding the breathless attention of his young audience, and his not so young audience as well. "There was another sound."

"Whoop! whoop!" there were the Indians! Here they came, launching their tomahawks into the tree right next to our heroes! The only inconceivable thing about this attack was that the Indians resembled the wolves a little too closely. The hair color was definitely the same--brown, blonde, and red. Strange how these coincidences work--you'd almost think that the wolves had transmogrified themselves into the "Amerindians." But of course that is a silly notion. Anyway, Craig, Aaron, and Bobby--whoops, I mean the Indians, did a war dance before setting to their bloody business. But thankfully they were defeated! Davy Crockett and Kit Carson (with some help from Timothy) used their bows and arrows and hand-to-hand combat skills to vanquish their foes and save their lives.

"We're outnumbered!" Ben--I mean Davy Crockett, cried. "Three against three!"

It was a gory day. Consequently it was a satisfactory one.

Once our heroes were safe, some of us split up to either go back to the vans or press on to another trail. I decided to press on, and quite a few others did as well.

The woods we travailed were charming. As we progressed, I talked with Jane about how the woods reminded me of woods in Narnia or in Lord of the Rings where Treebeard lived. She said they reminded her of The Last of the Mohicans. As our various clods of people separated according to their hiking speeds, I found myself with Jane, Brandon, Aaron, and Ben. So while we were sliding down hills and endeavoring not to slip on acorns and barrel into the person(s) in front of us, the notion of The Last of the Mohicans came up. Quickly it was determined that since Brandon was in the lead at the time he should be Natty Bumpo (or whatever his name is--I got confused and called him Natty Bumpkin), and of course Jane and I would be Cora and Alice. Aaron and Ben ran ahead and attempted to hide behind trees along the trail. The guys seemed to have forgotten that they weren't as narrow as they were when they were infants, so they were barely concealed behind the skinny trees. Still, we dashed through them, pulling out Killdeer on the lot of them. But no, that wasn't how it was supposed to be. Aaron reminded us that what really happened was that the Indians ran off with the girls, so all he and Ben had to do was convince Brandon to join their side and then he could carry his sister-in-law and Aaron could carry me. No, but in the book the girls rode horses. How lamentable! But that problem was quickly solved as Ben offered himself, then that plan was soon exchanged so that Brandon and Aaron would be the horses after all. The plotting was quite engrossing, but at the same time the talk of "carrying off the girls" was a little unnerving. I jogged a little ahead of them to widen the space, just in case the imaginations ran a little too wild. I needn't have worried. Jane and I were as safe with these guys as we would be with a couple of kittens, and just as secure from other enemies as we would have been with lions instead.

Soon we reached the meeting spot where the vehicles were parked. Situated on a dirt road with a lake on one side and a bit of swamp on the other, we ate our lunch off the hood of Gerry's car. Beforehand, however, we hung out with a new friend of mine, named Frank. Everybody seemed to like him quite well, except for Brandon. For some reason or other Frank ended up in one of the bodies of water four times (three of those times it was thanks to Brandon) and had to be quickly rescued. I was a trifle concerned since Frank doesn't know how to swim and I wouldn't want to lose him, but there was always somebody else willing to fish him out, and all in all he wasn't too worse off for the wear. We also hung out with another friend named Baldy--he was found in the river in Florida. What's up with these friends who can't swim? Yes, Frank was a great birthday present from Craig. I've long wanted to learn how to throw a football better, and now's my chance to get the experience.

After these proceedings and a vote as to what the students wanted to do, we loaded up in the van and sped off to some interesting factories. The Cabot Cheese factory and the Ben and Jerry's Icecream factory were ones we visited in the afternoon, and the Simon Pierce Glass factory was one we visited in the evening. They were enlightening, but nothing of amazing import occurred. The cheese factory people gave us a very personal tour as well as free cheese samples and a yogurt for everybody. Most of us tried out their new "Greek style" yogurt, and it was great fun passing our yogurt cups around the van and getting a taste of other people's flavors. Mine was chocolate raspberry (mmm. . . ) but I liked Diane's blueberry pomegranate better, which was great because she didn't want any so she just let us all eat as much as we wanted.

As for the Ben and Jerry's Icecream factory, the tour was rather short and a little disapointing for being more expensive, but it was still fun. The man who gave us the tour had unique bovine vocal qualities (like when he asked us to "Mmmooooooo-ve closer") which was corny but entertaining. After the tour I bought a ceramic icecream bowl for Chad's birthday. It's round (bowls usually are) and patchy black and white like a cow, and underneath are four pink legs that one gradually realizes are supposed to be udders. Inside the bottom of the bowl it says "Udderly Delicious!" Well, it amused me so I figured it would amuse Chad. Hopefully it did.

For dinner, we stopped to picnic near a gorge in Vermont that we have frequented in past years with the Bibleschool. I believe the last time we were there was in Clyde's first year of Bibleschool. Anyway, the evening was cool and unfortunately our taco meat was nearly frozen, but my daddy had the brilliant idea of heating the meat up on the car engines. He's thinking of inventing something that can heat up cans of soup when you're on a road trip, which I think is a great idea. Following through with this suggestion, Amy went to Gerry and asked, "Does your car have an engine?" I'm sure she breathed a sigh of relief when Gerry assured her that he did have such a heating tool that he happened to have under his hood, and thus the meat was brought more swiftly to its digestive end.

We got home tired but happy around ten o'clock or somewhere thereafter.

The next day we embarked for Newport, RI. I don't know if you've ever been to Newport, but if you haven't you should have somebody else describe it for you if you wish it. I'm too lazy to do so right now. While there we received a tour of the yachting school and the Coronet from none other than the guy who read Uncle Tim's article on it years back and got all inspired about it. He's the very same guy who has painted most of the pictures of "America's most historic yacht," that is, our old friend the Coronet. She's really not much to look at right now, but they seem to actually be moving again toward working on her. Using his inexpressible charm and old-time captain habits, Uncle Tim managed to fanangle his way so that we were able to go inside and on deck, even though it was supposedly a hard hat zone. "Once a captain, always a captain," our guide shrugged, once he had given up trying to stop us. Some people are just unstoppable.:)

After lunch by the water some of us waited in the van for some of the more tardy students to get back from the breakwater. As I sat in the first bench seat, a thingy or two drove by on the road right in front of us. And when I say a thingy, I mean a thingy, because I don't know exactly any other way to describe it, and I don't really care to know. It was some sort of vehicle that looks like a combination of a smart car, a tricycle, and a convertible. So as it went by, I let forth my profound observation:

"There goes the thingy!"

"A thingy?" Amy scoffed teasingly at my limited vocabulary.

"Well, I don't know what else to call it, do you, Stephen?" I applied to Stephen, who seems to know more about cars than anybody I know.

"I don't know what it is either," he admitted. "I called it a thingy a little while ago though so it's okay if you do."

"There, you see?" I grinned at Amy.

"Well what if I don't think it's a thingy?" she retorted. "What if I think it's a thing-a-ma-jig?"

"No, a thingamajig would have more springs in it," Stephen replied.

"Well, what about a thingamabob?" she persisted.

"No, a thingamabob is more roundish," I told her.

"And has red hair," Heidi added from the second bench seat. Ha, clever girl! Yep, "Bobby" and "roundish" definitely go hand in hand, in my mind. (and in case you don't know me or the redhead in question, I am not being incredibly insulting because Bobby is not in the least bit round)

After lunch, we proceeded to the oft-traveled and very popular cliff walk. As we separated with people who moved at similar paces as ourselves, I ended up hanging out primarily with my older cousin and good friend Aaron, and for awhile we were also with the Post boys and my mom.

The main highlight of this cliff walk experience was going through the tunnels. I told Aaron about the time two years ago I had gone through the tunnels with Clyde and Bria, and Bria had stopped us before entering, telling us that we couldn't waste the acoustics and we HAD to sing something. So we sang No Nobis from Henry V. Well, we came to the first tunnel and were minorly distraught because people kept entering it, so we waited casually around until it was vacant, and then we plunged in. But people still weren't very far away, so we mostly chimed out a few notes and measures here and there. However, when we came to the second tunnel and no one was in sight, it was too good of an opportunity to pass up. So we stopped dead still in the tunnel until we could come up with something to sing together. The pathetic thing was that we couldn't think of anything! The songs that Aaron suggested were ones I said I didn't feel like I knew well enough to make an enjoyable go on, so we floundered until I said:

"We could sing something simple like 'Wonderful Grace of Jesus.'"

This I knew was a favorite of both of ours, so he quickly agreed and we dove in. And the acoustics were spectacular! The tunnel was rippled, and the sound rolled all around and enveloped us in such unimaginable purity that we almost could have bathed in it. I sang soprano and Aaron bellowed his gorgeous harmony, and we rocked on, pacing up and down the tunnel as we sang one verse and chorus--any squeakiness in my second to last high note was graciously concealed by the tunnel's acoustics, and I almost felt like a professional. Too bad we can't always sing in a tunnel--we would probably all be famous. When we had finished, the sound of applause erupted from around the corner, and we were slightly mortified to realize that we had had a small audience (a man and his wife and kids). We didn't actually see the people, but they called out words of praise, and that was the last we expected to hear from them until a mile or so down the trail a man walking next to us turned and asked us if we sang in a choir! He seemed to think that we sounded terrific. Of course, he also has never heard me sing outside of a tunnel.

After some confusion as to where our meeting place was (apparently when Aaron and I got to the meeting place the vans had already moved to a different location because everybody else was going so slowly), we met up and proceeded to The Breakers, a huge museum-like mansion that belonged to Corenelius Vanderbilt. "Fancy" is a word that falls too short of the mark. We're talking about three story ceilings with gold leaf and intricate paintings, red carpeted staircases and all. The tour was an audio one, so we each were given our own audio devices and headphones so that we could punch in numbers from each room and move along the tour at whatever pace we chose. It was interesting how some of us fell into our various groups again, and also interesting to be only twenty seconds ahead or behind somebody else so that you could either watch their reactions to be able to tell at what part of the tour they were at (as I saw Craig's enlightened expression reveal that he had just spotted the hidden turtle pointed out on the ceiling) or know that something unusual was coming, such as Ben's sudden burst of "Twice a day!" breaking the stillness of the quiet room. Pretty soon I knew what he was exclaiming about: the chambermaids who worked in the mansion had to change the sheets twice a day, so when I heard that, I exclaimed, "Twice a day!" but it was more to make fun of him, even though it was pretty astonishing. I also learned that the only servants that were supposed to be seen were the men, and because of that the footmen and butlers (I think) all had to be at least six feet tall in order to get the impressive-looking job.

Well, the tour was pretty fascinating, and when it was finished I went to turn in my audio player to an older man. Unfortunately, I had forgotten that I still had the headphones around my neck, and as he waited patiently for me to disentangle my hair and person from it, he chuckled, "I thought you were going to leave me your beautiful head!"

"Not today," I laughed, and went on.

This time was followed by a little Newport shop browsing, tossing the Frisbee and Frank on the beach, and eating pizza on the beach before heading across the bridge for home at sunset. T'was a full and happy day. And I need to go home and go to bed. I have to feed the horses in the morning.

Friday, May 01, 2009

Literary Glimpses

        "Here she comes round the bend, folks. Her tail's streaming, her nostrils are flaring--the air is resounding with the sharp clamor of her pounding hooves. You can hear her panting from a mile away! Down to the wire--no--not down to the wire, but pressing ever onward. Here she is--she's on the final leg of the race! That finish line must look mighty good to that tired horse, folks."
 
And so it does. For that's where I am. . . pounding down the track with only two weeks to go. Two weeks. And weeks and weeks and weeks behind me. I really haven't minded the race that much. . . it's given me something productive to do and I generally enjoy learning. But I must say that finish-line does "look mighty good."
 
As I've finished up various subjects, I've enjoyed going back and scanning some of my notes, particularly American Literature which I studied this year. And since I copied down a bunch of my favorite quotes as I read through various literary greats, I thought it would be fun to put a bunch of those quotes here. Prepare for a blast of random literary nuggets, whether true or ridiculous. Oh, and never fear, these authors aren't the only ones I read or studied about. They're just the ones that I took the time to write down what they said.
 
"To be great is to be misunderstood." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson (I'm not going to post any questions I may have of the complete validity of each statement, I merely wrote these down because I liked them or just thought they were interesting).
 
"Virtue or vice emit a breath every moment." ~Emerson
 
"That which each man can do best, none but his Maker can teach him." ~Emerson
 
"Life is a series of surprises, and would not be worth taking or keeping if it were not." ~Emerson
 
". . . the question ever is, not what you have done or forborne, but at whose command you have done or forborne it." ~Emerson
 
"I am constrained every moment to acknowledge a higher origin for events than the will I call mine." ~Emerson (in case you haven't figured it out, I had to read a bunch of Emerson's essays--and he is pretty quotable; I wanted to write down some of the sentences that made real sense to me since there was so much that was rawther dense-ish).
 
"From within or from behind, a light shines through us upon things and makes us aware that we are nothing, but the light is all." ~Emerson
 
"Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm." ~Emerson *an especially favorite quote* :D
 
Here comes Henry David Thoreau, the poor confused guy (I read Walden to help educate myself on him). He had a singular writing style though and he said some interesting stuff. Here's something he said when he was talking about why we don't need to be lonely (probably in reference to questions he got about whether he was lonely in his cabin): "Next to us is not the workman whom we have hired, with whom we love so well to talk, but the workman whose work we are."
 
"Speech is for the convenience of those who are hard of hearing." ~Thoreau
 
"He was so simply and naturally humble. . . that humility was no distinct quality in him, nor could he conceive it."
 
Here's a famous one of his: "If a man does not keep pace with his companions perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer."
 
"The greatest gains and values are farthest from being appreciated. . . They are the highest reality." ~Thoreau
 
"He who distinguishes the true savor of his food can never be a glutton; he who does not cannot be otherwise." I like this one to defend my slow eating habits.:)
 
"Man flows at once to God when the channel of purity is open." ~Thoreau. This would be an interesting one to discuss Scripturally.
 
"He is blessed who is assured that the animal is dying out in him day by day, and the divine being established." hmm. . . ?
 
"Heaven is under our feet as well as over our heads."
 
"The nose is a manifest congealed drop or stalactite." I found this one highly amusing.
 
"We loiter in winter while it is already spring. . . While such a sun holds out to burn, the vilest sinner may return."
 
"If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put the foundations under them."
 
"No face which we can give to a matter will stead us so well as the truth. This alone wears well."
 
"Humility like darkness reveals the heavenly lights."
 
"Superfluous wealth can buy superfluities only. . . a goose is a goose, dress it as you will."
 
"Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth."
 
"Only that day dawns to which we are awake. There is more day to dawn. The sun is but a morning star."
 
Bored stiff yet? No worries, we're leaving these two deep guys behind and moving on. I wish I had copied more clever phrases down from the fiction I read, but here are some more random bits from a few more of the authors I read this past year.
 
Herman Melville (Moby Dick)
 
"Call me Ishmael."
 
"Queequeg was George Washington cannibalistically developed."
 
"Why it is that all Merchant seamen, and also all Pirates. . . cherish such a scornful feeling towards Whale-ships; this is a question it would be hard to answer. Because, in the case of pirates, say, I should like to know whether that profession of theirs has any peculiar glory about it. It sometimes ends in uncommon elevation, indeed; but only at the gallows. And besides, when a man is elevated in that odd fashion, he has no proper foundation for his superior altitude. Hence, I conclude, that in boasting himself to be high lifted above a whale man, in that assertion the pirate has no solid basis to stand on."
 
". . . stabbing him in the eye with the unflinching poniard of his glance. . . "
 
"He is a grand, ungodly, god-like man."
 
"the before living agent became the living instrument."
 
"The truest of all men was the Man of Sorrows."
 
"To produce a mighty book, you must choose a mighty theme. No great and enduring volume can ever be written on the flea, though many there be who have tried it."
 
"I am not a brave man; never said I was a brave man; I am a coward; and I sing to keep up my spirits. And I tell you what it is, Mr. Starbuck, there's no way to stop my singing in this world but to cut my throat. And when that's done, ten to one I sing ye the doxology for a wind-up."
 
Walt Whitman
 
"When I give I give myself."
 
"The grass is the beautiful uncut hair of graves."
 
Emily Dickinson--I loved reading a book of her poems! I think they actually made me enjoy poetry because they were so though-provoking. Here is a series of my favorites, either of lines, or stanzas, or whole poems:
 
"you only understand pleasure by pain"
 
"success is counted sweetest by those who nearest succeed"
 
"parting is all we know of Heaven and all we need of Hell"
 
"If I should die
And you should live
And time should gurgle on. . ."
 
To fight aloud is very brave
But gallanter, I know,
Who charge within the bosom,
The cavalry of woe
Who win, and nations do not see,
Who fall, and none observe,
Whose dying eyes no country
Regards with patriot love.
****
Life is life, and death but death!
Bliss is but bliss, and breath but breath!
And if, indeed, I fail,
At least to know the worst is sweet.
Defeat means nothing but defeat,
No drearier can prevail!
**************
I shall know why, when time is over
And have ceased to wonder why;
Christ will explain each separate anguish
In the fair schoolroom of the sky
 
He will tell me what Peter promised
And I, for wonder at his woe,
I shall forget the drop of anguish
That scald me now, that scalds me now.
**********************
Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all. . .
 
. . . And sweetest in the gale is heard; And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.
**************************
Father, I bring thee not myself,--
That were the little load;
I bring thee the imperial heart
I had not strength to hold
 
The hear I cherished in my own
Till mine too heavy grew,
Yet strangest, heavier since it went,
Is it too large for you?
***********************
"I heard a fly buzz when I died"
 
"Because I could not stop for death he kindly stopped for me"
 
"Death whets victory, they say;
The reefs in old Gethsemane
Endear the shore beyond
'Tis beggars banquet best define;
'Tis thirsting vitalizes wine,--
Faith faints to understand."
*************************
No rack can torture me
My soul's at liberty
Behind this mortal bone
There knits a bolder one
 
You cannot prick with saw,
Nor render with scimitar.
Two bodies therefore be;
Bind one, and one will flee.
 
The eagle of his nest
No easier divest
And gain the sky,
Than mayest though,
Except thyself may be
Thine enemy;
Captivity is consciousness.
So's liberty.
********************
Triumph may be of several kinds,
There's triumph in the room
When that old imperator, Death,
By faith is overcome
 
There's triumph of the finer mind
When truth, affronted long,
Advances calm to her supreme,
Her God her only throng.
 
A triumph when temptation's bribe
Is slowly handed back
One eye upon the heaven renounced
And one upon the rack.
 
Severer triumph, by himself
Experienced, who can pass
Acquitted from that naked bar,
Jehovah's countenance!
***************************
Through the straight pass of suffering
The martyrs even trod
Their feet upon temptation
Their faces upon God
 
. . . Their faith the everlasting troth;
Their expectation fair;
The needle to the north degree
Wades so, through polar air.
**************************
Essential oils are wrung:
The attar from the rose
Is not expressed by suns alone,
It is the gift of screws
 
The general rose decays;
But this, in lady's drawer,
Makes summer when the lady lies
In ceaseless rosemary.
**********************
Sufficient troth that we shall rise--
Deposed, at length, the grave--
To that new marriage, justified
Through Calvaries of Love!
*********************
Love is anterior to life,
Posterior to death,
Initial of creation, and
The exponent of breath.
***********************
If I can stop one heart from breaking
I shall not live in vain
If I can ease one life the aching
Or cool one pain
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again
I shall not live in vain.
**************************
Death is a dialogue between
The spirit and the dust
"Dissolve," says Death. The Spirit, "Sir,
I have another trust."
 
Death doubts it, argues from the ground.
The Spirit turns away,
Just laying off, for evidence,
An overcoat of clay.
***********************
The stimulus, beyond the grave
His countenance to see,
Supports me like imperial drams
Afforded royally.
*******************
I never saw a moor,
I never saw the sea;
Yet know I how the heather looks,
And what a wave must be.
 
I never spoke with God,
Nor visited in heaven;
Yet certain am I of the spot
As if the chart were given.
**************************
There, isn't she AMAZING?
 
Okay, here's good ol' Mark Twain. I read three of his novels this year.
 
". . . he edged nearer and nearer towards the pansy; finally his bare foot rested upon it, his pliant toes closed upon it, and he hopped away with his treasure, and disappeared around the corner. But only for a minute--only while he could button the flower inside his jacket, next to his heart, or next to his stomach possibly, for he was not much posted in anatomy and not hypercritical anyway."
 
"It was a gory day. Consequently it was a satisfactory one."
 
"But I reckoned, that with her disposition, she was having a better time in the graveyard."
 
"Persons attempting to find a motive in this narrative will be prosecuted; persons attempting to find a moral in it will be banished; persons attempting to find a plot in it will be shot." -BY ORDER OF THE AUTHOR
 
". . . but as for me, give me comfort first, and style afterward."
 
"Take a rest, child; the way you are using up all the domestic air, the kingdom will have to go to importing it by tomorrow, and it's a low enough treasury without that."
 
"one mustn't criticize other people on grounds where he can't stand perpendicular himself."
 
"The law of work does seem utterly unfair--but there it is, and nothing can change it: the higher the pay in enjoyment the worker gets out of it, the higher shall be his pay in cash, also."
 
"when a man is a man, you can't knock it out of him."
 
"Words are only painted fire; a look is the fire itself."
 
Here comes Henry James:
 
"Well, you think us 'quaint'--that's the same thing [as despising us]. I won't be though 'quaint,' to begin with; I'm not so in the least. I protest."
"That protest is one of the quaintest things I've ever heard," Isabel answered with a smile.
 
"Miss Stackpole's ocular surfaces unwinkingly caught the sun."
 
"When people forget I'm a poor creature I'm often incommoded," he said. "But it's worse when they remember it."
 
"be in a better position for appreciating people than they are for appreciating you."
 
T.S. Eliot glides by on our conveyor belt of authors. A few of his words fall on our ears:
 
You say I am repeating
Something I have said before. I shall say it again.
Shall I say it again? In order to arrive there,
To arrive where you are, to get from where you are not,
You must go by a way wherein there is no ecstasy.
In order to arrive at what you do not know
You must go by a way which is the way of ignorance
In order to possess what you do not possess
You must go by way of dispossession.
In order to arrive at what you are not
You must go through the way in which you are not.
And what you do not know is the only thing you know
And what you own is what you do not own
And where you are is where you are not.
 
"For us, there is only the trying. The rest is not our business."
 
"Some can absorb knowledge, the more tardy must sweat for it. Shakespeare acquired more essential history from Plutarch than most men could from the whole British Museum."
 
"Poetry is not a turning loose of emotion, but an escape from emotion; it is not the expression of personality, but an escape from personality. But, of course, only those who have personality and emotions know what it means to want to escape from these things."
 
"Life is made up of marble and mud." ~Nathaniel Hawthorne
 
James Fenimore Cooper
 
"God, who made us, has put into our nature the craving to keep the skin on the head."
 
"he wore his own hair"
 
"Women are but mirrors which reflect the images before them."  ?
 
And I shall close this lengthy overview with Henry Wadsworth Longfellow:
 
"When she had passed, it seemed like the ceasing of exquisite music."
 
"Whither my heart has gone, there follows my hand, and not elsewhere.
For when the heart goes before, like a lamp, and illumines the pathway,
Many things are made clear, that else lie hidden in darkness."

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

More than Turtle Soup

Check out this article that just came out in our local paper. I thought it was pretty amazing, so I thought I would share it:

Dublin--Truck driver Jay Rivers made an unusual discovery while headed west on Rte. 101 last Monday. After receiving an alarm from a very rough obstacle in the road, he pulled over and discovered that the turtle he had mistaken for a trash bag was dead and its shell had broken open. To his astonishment, he found that the inside of the shell was coated in a quarter of an inch of gold!

"I don't know how it happened," Rivers said. "It was foggy this morning so I didn't see it 'til it was too late. I knew by the jolt that it was more than just a bag of trash." Concerned, Rivers stopped at the Citgo gas station at Carr's Store to investigate the mysterious bump, located just east of the Morning Star Maple sap house.

The creature, a snapping turtle with a shell aprox. sixteen inches in diameter, was old and a little too large for its shell, so the pressure exerted by the eighteen wheeler on the shell broke its spine and killed it instantly. It has been pointed out that the gold layer probably contributed to its demise.

The presence of the gold itself has puzzled experts tremendously. Zoologist Kim Larsen believes that the gold could have been deposited in the soft lining of the inner shell.

"I estimate that this guy was about seventy years old," Larsen speculates. "And if he were exposed to a body of water that was infiltrated with tiny gold particles, it could have easily started to build up in his shell at a young age, instead of the normal addition of calcium and mineral enriched deposits."

Where this gold-diffused body of water is remains a mystery, but the most obvious possibility is the marsh right along Rte. 101 where the turtle was found. Ecologists and mineralogists alike are now conducting experiments to test the waters for gold deposits, and they're taking samples of water from all the surrounding areas as well. Since many of these reservoirs are fed by waters from Mt. Monadnock, many people are wondering if the mountain is the ultimate source of riches. Has Dublin struck gold? This and many other questions are what experts are endeavoring to answer.

By Kathleen Scott.

Well, I don't know about you, but I enjoyed that and thought it was very cool.

Skeptical? You have good reason to be.

Have a happy April Fools Day. :)

Monday, March 09, 2009

Here I Stand

Okay, here's a story that I've written in the past few months. Actually, I finished it nearly two months ago, but I've still been working on it now and then; I should probably get a second person to help me edit it though. However, since it's not very likely that I'll do anything amazing with it (it would have to BE amazing for that), I figured why not put it on my blog? After all, this is a place where I can "publish" whatever I want to, so here we go. But just to warn you, the only person that I've actually shared this with fell asleep (during the most exciting part!), so who knows if anybody will find it interesting. I found it exciting to write, but I'm more than a little biased. Of course, my friend's dozing off may have had something to do with the fact that I started reading this to her at like eleven fifteen at night.  :)

 

Here I Stand

 

            "Really, Shammah, you are certainly the most incorrigible boy I've ever known," the brown-haired girl declared with a toss of her head. She was trying to keep her hair out of her eyes as she kneaded her bread. "To still be telling such tales to Rachel at your age!"

          

"Peace, Hannah," said an older woman entering the kitchen. Her weathered complexion gave her away as a Hararite, a woman of the mountains. Streaks of silver lit her hair, betraying one of the few signs of her aging, while her kind brown eyes spoke a rare rebuke.

           

"Peace, Hannah," she repeated when she saw her daughter about to protest. "Our Shammah is no longer a boy. He is a man, and we need to remember that. And," she added with emphasis and a stormy gaze that silenced Hannah as she tried to interrupt, "I see no harm in telling stories to the children. It is breaking no commandment."

           

"It might be breaking a commandment if it includes solemnly telling a gullible child that cheese is really sheep's brain, dried and condensed," Hannah replied, trying to defend herself without being disrespectful to her mother. "You wouldn't expect a man to invent a story like that. That is why I call him a boy, Mother."

           

"Well, maybe if you started calling him a man he would start acting like one," her mother answered calmly.

           

The subject of this debate grinned down at his little sister as she fumed silently. Hannah could be a fierce enemy in an argument, but their mother was even fiercer, for all her placidity. Still, Shammah loved his sister and didn't like losing her favor, so even though he wasn't sorry for teasing Rachel (who looked like she was about to cry, she so hated the sight of such warfare), he offered his hand.

           

"Come, woman," he said, purposefully using the word to address his seventeen-year-old sister, "let us be friends."

           

Hannah kept kneading her bread with something akin to violence, but when her stern eyes were lifted to his, something in them broke like the ice on a crystal green lake. Smiling, she accepted her brother's hand and gave it a squeeze.

 

"Oh, come old man, you and I just wouldn't get along the same if we didn't have something to squabble about," she laughed.

 

"Old man," Shammah repeated, as if insulted. "Not so fast. I'm only four years your senior, you know."

 

"Quiet, you'll keep my other bread from rising."

 

Shammah opened his mouth to protest that such a notion was nonsense, but Hannah was too quick for him. She popped a small lump of cheese in his mouth before he could utter a syllable.

 

"Have some sheep's brain; I know you'll enjoy it. Then hurry up and finish your noonday meal so you can go back to work." And with that, she returned to her dough and ignored him.

 

Shammah could have felt hurt, but he knew Hannah better than that. He would just do what she advised and make her think that she had won this round. Sometimes that was the best method when dealing with womenfolk, Shammah had discovered, and besides, arguing with girls was beneath him. He had to pick his battles.

 

"I like sheep's brain," a small voice piped up. Eight-year-old Rachel patted her brother's hand as if he needed soothing. "And I like it when you teach me, Shammah."

 

In response to this innocent confidence issuing from his victim, Shammah tried to smooth his ruffled conscience by enfolding his sister's slight frame in his massive arms. This hug was followed by a kiss on her neatly braided brown head, then a brief tickling session.

 

"Don't believe everything your big brother tells you, all right?" he murmured, patting her outside to play. She skipped out of the room, still bursting with giggles.

 

Shammah looked up to see his other sister, Sarah, sitting at the table smiling. Her clear blue eyes stared unblinkingly in his direction, but not right at him.     

 

"She is very forgiving," he said to her, feeling rather humble.

 

"In her eyes there is nothing to forgive," was Sarah's serene reply. None of Hannah's choleric temperament resided in Sarah's quiet presence. Blind from her birth fifteen years ago, Sarah had accepted her dark world with impressive grace, and now she sat shelling lentils, ready to be a peacemaker if necessary.

 

"In the long run, I think she's really the winner," Shammah said ruefully. "All I get is a couple of laughs on the inside, while she gets to make me feel like a monster."

 

Sarah's face wreathed itself in even larger smiles, and her short strawberry blond hair quivered as she shook her head, "But she gets no satisfaction from what she's not aware of. You shouldn't try to excuse yourself by making her the victor, Shammah."

 

"Khaval, you're right, as always," Shammah admitted, an air of the melodramatic in his tone.

 

Snatching two hunks of bread and cheese designated as his lunch, Shammah retreated to a stool at the other end of the kitchen. He chewed with measured haste, knowing that he should be returning to their field shortly. His work, tilling, planting, weeding, and harvesting that field, was what his whole family depended on for their livelihood. It wasn't just the few vegetables that they managed to turn out of their garden that were important. No, the true prize of the seven-acre field was the lentil plot that crowned much of the area. Not only did the family eat the lentils (in various stews, breads, and casseroles that their mother concocted for any season), but they used what was left to trade for whatever else they needed. Their lentil field was everything to them, according to a solemn statement by Shammah's father. It had been in the family for six generations, carefully cultivated and improved before being handed down to the next generation, along with equally cultivated and improved methods for raising better lentil crops. No wonder people were willing to trade with them; the lentils that Shammah's family grew were said to be caressed into enormous sizes and tastiness, but such legends are often exaggerated.

 

Born as the eldest into an Israelite family of the tribe of Ephraim, Shammah was more than keenly aware of his privilege and duty to caring for the lentil field as well as for his family. After all, he was the only man of the house to provide for his mother and three younger sisters, besides Gamaliel, who was only twelve.

 

Finishing his lunch, Shammah brushed himself and strode out the open door to return to the field, but not before bestowing a staid nod to the females present. He was, after all, a man of many responsibilities. Or so he thought.

 

Taking up a hoe and resuming work, Shammah mulled over what might have been different if his father were still alive. Perhaps the transition from boyhood to manhood would not have been so abrupt and painful. Perhaps he would be able to read and write better if he hadn't had to take charge of the field. Perhaps he would have become an excellent swordsman like his friend Caleb. Perhaps he would not feel faint whenever he picked up a sword. Perhaps his mother would not look so old and tired all the time.

 

But speculating such possibilities was folly, Shammah thought as he overturned another pesky weed. The familiar scent of earth filled his nostrils and he felt grit between his teeth as his jaw tightened. Time had passed; eight years in fact. Eight years.

 

Shammah had been on the threshold of his thirteenth birthday when the Philistines made a raid on their village. The raid was small, it is true; little was stolen or damaged by the marauding band, most of them drunk and looking for mischief. One of them, a remarkable brute with one eye brown and the other blue, had fixed one of his evil eyes on Hannah, who even at age nine was pleasing in appearance. Their father, Agee, had stood up to him, and had paid for it with his life. A curse and a careless thrust of the sword upon the unarmed man were all that it took.

 

Shammah tried to fight back, hurling himself forward as if powered by the grim thrust of a catapult. A laugh and a blow to the side of the head had sent him reeling, but, trembling as he was, Shammah grabbed the sword that the Philistine had dropped when the boy had attacked him. Now Shammah almost wished that he had ended the Philistine's beastly existence right then, but something held him back. His head still throbbing, Shammah's breathing came in loud staccato gasps as he gazed into the grotesque eyes of his enemy. The boy was shaking violently all over, and his hands felt slippery as he clutched the sword aloft, the sword that was still dripping from the blood of his murdered father who lay at his feet.

 

It was not the panting boy who frightened the dirty scoundrel and his two friends away; if given the time, he would have laughed at the lad's feeble attempts at bravery. No, more likely it was Hannah's high-pitched wailing that discomfited him more, and a call from his compatriots who were leaving the village was all that was needed for him to quickly mount his horse and exit the scene, a little guiltily.

 

Words cannot express the anguish that was left in the wake of that foreigner. Time had passed; the wound had mostly healed, but a rankling scar remained. Even this was only evident through scattered symptoms which hinted at how the family really suffered. Their mother's hair seemed to turn gray overnight; Hannah, strong as she was, started having hysterical fits whenever she saw a Philistine; Sarah became even more withdrawn. As for Shammah, whenever he touched a sword he could not forget that sick throbbing feeling he had experienced as he clutched that blade on that foul day. He still learned how to handle a sword, as was almost necessary in those dangerous times, but he had little time to practice much like his friend Caleb, who was a shepherd, and whenever Shammah did take on that loathsome weapon his legs felt like pillars of sand.

 

Once, three years after his father's death, he tried to stand up to a lion that came prowling on their property while he was working. Shammah couldn't douse his memories or his fears as he held up the sword toward the approaching beast. To his utter shame, he fainted, and he was only saved because Caleb's older cousin happened by on a visit to his relatives. The cousin killed the lion with his bare hands and then considerately deposited Shammah in his house. His name was David.

 

"Here I am, Shammah," a boy's voice panted. "Where shall I work?"

 

Shammah left his reverie and paused in his labor, which had never ceased since he had started. "Oh, there you are, Gamaliel," he said. "I had quite forgotten about you; where have you been off to?"

 

"Talking to Caleb while he watched the sheep. He's teaching me how to use a sword," the tactless twelve-year-old responded, not noticing the look of pain that crossed Shammah's face. Gamaliel had never asked Shammah to teach him how to use a sword.

 

"Uhuh, and I suppose that you came home when your stomach called you, is that it?" Shammah asked without anger.

 

"Yes."

 

"And what reminded you to come here?"

 

Gamaliel blushed. "Hannah told me I couldn't have any lunch until I helped you for awhile."

 

"I see," Shammah said with the appropriate gravity of an older brother who has just heard his younger sibling confess a great sin. Then, assuming a more insouciant air, he said, "Well, I realize it's a hard lot to have to work for one's bread, but we men must do our duty, if only to fill our stomachs. You can start working over there."

 

With a nod of acquiescence, Gamaliel walked slowly to where his brother had pointed. Then seizing his hoe, Gamaliel worked from a gradual speed to a more feverish one that denoted his idea that if he worked quickly then maybe he could get an unpleasant task over with at once. Smiling at his little brother's reckless tempo, Shammah resumed his labor.

 

"He's a good lad, even though he is lazy sometimes," Shammah thought. "To think that I was about his age when it happened!" He shuddered at the thought of Gamaliel having to face the Philistine, but the shudder was no larger than when he thought of his own experience. He was glad for Gamaliel's sake that he had been only a toddler at the time of their father's murder, and fortunately he was taking a nap when the three older children were playing in the yard and the Philistine happened by. Rachel hadn't even been born yet, and Shammah thanked God for it, for the nightmares she would have had would have been far worse than Hannah's and Sarah's, had the little girl been alive and a little older.

 

A road ran by their lentil field and through their small village, and Shammah and Gamaliel had not been busy together for long when a man with what appeared to be his family came trudging down the road, equipped for what looked like a considerable journey. The man was unfamiliar to Shammah, but, thinking it right to be friendly, Shammah called, "Hail, stranger!"

 

The man visibly jumped, his eyes darting all about before he finally caught sight of Shammah. "Hail yourself, but it would please me more if you did not startle a man out of his senses. I've had enough to deal with."

 

Before Shammah could offer an apology or an inquiry as to what ailed the man, the brusque stranger hurried his family away.

 

This family was soon followed by another, which was followed by a third, and finally a whole band of travelers lumbered by, all looking as harried as a mouse who knows that a hawk has its eye on it. They tossed about furtive glances in every direction, especially behind them, and their haste was such that prevented Shammah from engaging anyone in conversation.

 

With his curiosity mounting, Shammah came nearer to the road and grabbed the attention of a boy about the age of Gamaliel who was rushing by, "What ails your band, young friend? From where do you come and to where are you going?"

 

"We come from a village about half a day's journey from here," the boy blurted, perhaps glad of a moment's rest from his walk, even though he looked wistfully after his family.

 

"And why do you travel like refugees?" Shammah persisted.

 

The boy rolled his eyes. "Haven't you heard? There's a troop of Philistines on the move! They're pillaging all the neighboring villages, and they're headed this way!"

 

Shammah's brow darkened. These were grave tidings indeed. "How many? How far away are they?"

 

"They're about a league or two behind us," the boy replied. "And as for how many, I couldn't say. Hundreds, thousands maybe." Then the boy ran off without another word, eager to catch up with his family.

 

Shammah couldn't help but smile at the boy's obvious exaggeration. Philistines rarely moved in such large groups unless they were really at war. And were they? No, they had been defeated a couple of years ago, so this was probably no more than a plundering party, nothing of such extreme proportions. Perhaps there were enough of the brutes to cause a family to leave, but surely there weren't enough to cause a dozen good strong men to be afraid.

 

"Gamaliel, run into the house and tell Mother and the girls that they need to prepare a few things so the family can evacuate. They shouldn't be anywhere near here when the Philistines come through; the strain would be too great even if they were unharmed. You know how Hannah is." Shammah issued this order like one who expects to be obeyed. Gamaliel understood the tone and dropped the hoe to follow through with celerity.  

 

In the meantime, Shammah busied himself with putting the tools away and girding on his sword. He needed to find Caleb to see how many men he thought they could muster. Leaving was out of the question in his mind, for the lentil field would be absolutely worthless to them if the Philistines burnt everything and sowed salt, as they were known to do on occasion. The lentil field was everything to their family, Shammah thought, and worth more than he was, at least in his mind. Plus, he needed to gain time so that his family could get well away, and he was sure that Caleb would feel similarly. After all, Caleb was the swordsman; he was the brave one who would delight to put his swordsmanship into practice.

 

Shortly after Shammah had put the tools away, Caleb himself appeared on the scene. Desperation was in the air, and the sheep that Caleb herded down the road betrayed signs of their uneasiness.

 

Catching sight of Shammah, Caleb called, "Shammah, have you heard? The Philistines are coming!"

 

"Yes indeed, I have heard," Shammah replied with calmness that he didn't feel. "I was just trying to estimate how many men you think will stay to fight with us."

 

Caleb stared. "Shammah, there are over a hundred of them."

 

Taken aback, Shammah replied, "Are you sure?"

 

"I'm sure. A friend of mine counted them himself, and he's not one to tell tales."

 

"But I think if we only tried to convince some of the others to stay, we could take care of them. That way we could protect our homes and gain time for our families to escape."

 

"I doubt it. How many could we get? Our village is small—we could get a dozen at the most. Say ten. Now, ten against fifty conveys a whiff of madness. Ten against a hundred and ten reeks of insanity. I think our only chance is to run for it."

 

"I can't afford to run," Shammah answered. He was trying to shake off a leavening of despair. "This field is all we have. If we lose it, work of generations would be lost and my family could starve. I must try to defend it." The words sounded strangely hollow to his ears.


        "You and your noble ideas, Shammah," Caleb shook his head. "I trust God to keep you. I must go now." And with that, he was gone, the sound of anxious baas wafting back the expression of the remaining stillness.

           

Shammah's mind was spinning. He had so counted on his friend's support to defend the village. After all, he was the one who was so outspokenly fearless, not Shammah, and he had such a way of convincing others to take his views. However, despite his friend's persuasive talents, Shammah remained unconvinced.

           

What course of action should he take? He knew he would gain little, no matter what he chose. If he escaped, his family's most precious property would almost certainly be destroyed, and with it their inheritance, their livelihood, their honor, and their future. Yet if he remained he would hold almost no chance of surviving, and he and the field would probably perish together.

           

Suddenly, Shammah felt angry. What right did these uncouth foreigners have to wreak havoc in Israel's lands? God had given it to His people; others had no right to take it. Surely it would be no inglorious thing to stand and uphold the gift of the God Almighty, and not just the gift, but the holy, unquestionable supremacy of the choice by which it was given.

           

Weariness crept into Shammah's consciousness, and with it came a vast sense of loneliness. It was all very well to stand for what one believed to be right, but if no one else was standing for it, how was one to know that it was a right cause to stand for in the first place? Then it struck Shammah that he had been relying on strength of numbers. What credit was there in that? He contemplated what reasons would compel him to stay there alone if he felt to. He couldn't figure out if foolishness or heroism would be the true motives. However, those definitely weren't sufficient grounds to remain. Then why should he?

           

"Would you do it if God asked you to?" a still, small voice entered his head.

           

Relief swept in as Shammah's whole inner being cried, "Of course!" Immediately, there was no doubt in his mind. If God Himself were asking him to take a stand, Shammah would throw his whole soul into doing it just for His sake. And somehow he knew that God was asking him. He didn't understand why, but he knew it. No choice existed but to stay, come what may.

           

With this resolution firmly fixed in his mind, Shammah advanced toward the house. His mother seemed to have finished her hurried packing, and Hannah was wrapping up her fresh bread in clean cloths so they could take it along.

           

"Are you ready?" Shammah inquired.

           

"Yes," his mother answered. She looked hard at Shammah.

           

"Good. You should have time to get away."

           

"'You'?" Hannah said. "Don't you mean 'we'?"

           

Shammah's eyes never left his mother's, nor did hers leave his. "I'm going to stay, Mother."

           

She continued to gaze intently at him; Shammah felt as though there were nothing in his soul that she did not drink in, bitter though it may be for her to quaff it.

           

Hannah was not so silent. "What? Why?"

           

"God wants me to stay." He still didn't look at Hannah. He saw that his mother understood, and she understood everything.

           

"That's ridiculous!" Hannah exclaimed. "Why would He want you to stay? You'd only be throwing your life away. Remember, Shammah, those Philistines will not have mercy! Remember what they did to—"

           

"Hannah, that's enough," their mother interrupted, although her voice was so quiet that it hardly sounded like an interruption, but the command was clear. "He has made his decision and we should not argue with it."

           

"I'm staying with you," a voice declared. Shammah finally ceased gazing into his mother's eyes and turned to see Gamaliel, his chin thrust out with boyish determination.

           

 "You shouldn't, Gamaliel. I'm relying on you to be the man of the family. You need to watch over the womenfolk—you know they couldn't live without us," Shammah explained with a solemn hand on his little brother's shoulder. He feared that Gamaliel would resist, but thankfully he didn't; he simply bowed his head and nodded as one who accepts what he knows to be his duty.

           

A few minutes later, Shammah was standing by the road waving off his departing family. He didn't know how he had gotten through saying goodbye. Little Rachel had been very tearful; Hannah was a little emotional; Sarah, Gamaliel, and Mother were all very grave.

 

His mother had hardly spoken a word, but her eyes were full of meaning. When she did speak at the last, all she said was, "Take care, my son. I'm glad you are doing what God would call you to do. May He be with you."

 

He wondered if those were the last words he'd hear her speak.

 

A few more straggling shepherds passed by with their flocks. They barely even noticed Shammah as he stood in his field, his hands hanging at his sides. No, these shepherds were too intent upon their purpose. Indeed, one or two did catch sight of Shammah, but when they did, they stared at him as if they could hardly believe he were real; then their eyes would shift back to the ground as they hurried past.

 

Soon, the last traveler had hastened by, and Shammah found himself in utter solitude, except for a bird that chirped to its mate a stone's throw away. The day was hazy, but the sun shone bright and warm down on his head. It vaguely occurred to Shammah that maybe it would be wise to wear armor, but he didn't have any to wear so it mattered little.

 

Seconds inched by. He was just starting to wonder if the Philistines had been a hoax when he heard them. Harsh voices of delight grated in his ears as the first of the Philistine band entered the village and discovered easy plunder. Then he saw them. Although the tales of Philistine lords had always tickled his ears with elegance, the grim reality of their common soldiers was anything but dashing. This group of a score or more had pushed ahead of their comrades who were pillaging a house or two down the road, and their unkempt, fierce appearance was one almost identical to the drunks who had visited Shammah before. They didn't seem to improve with sobriety.

 

Catching sight of Shammah, the villains hooted and strutted closer.

 

"What have we here?" one of them said with an unpleasant chuckle. Shammah winced at his abrasive tongue. "A lame boy who begs to surrender?"

 

"More likely he wishes to be bribed into showing us where the prime loot can be found," another grinned, baring his yellow teeth.

 

"He has a sword. Perhaps he wishes to give us sport!" a third suggested. He guffawed derisively.

 

Shammah didn't understand their language—he barely even heard them. Thoughts spat through his head so fast that he almost didn't realize their existence. The most coherent thing that came through was, "This is it. Here's your last chance to run or give in. You don't have to do this. You know you're weak—remember the lion. . ." and then, "But He asked you to do it."

 

Taking a deep breath, Shammah said in his most civil but firm tones, "I'm afraid I'm going to have to ask you to leave. This is God's land and He's asked me to defend it. So if you'd kindly leave I'd be much obliged." He felt a little ridiculous since he didn't know whether they understood him, but he knew it was right to be polite in order to avoid a sanguinary confrontation, if such a confrontation was unnecessary. To emphasize his point to the Philistines, he drew his sword out of its sheath and nodded meaningfully.

 

A couple of the Philistines gaped openly, while the others cackled, "He must be a lunatic! It should be great sport to see how long this pup lasts." Still hooting, they patted one of their bolder fellows on the back as he drew his own sword.

 

Shammah shifted his feet, but didn't back down. "I am serious," he cried. He belatedly regretted crushing one of the lentil plants under his feet. "Leave now and you will be spared!" He still felt a little silly, but the words that came didn't seem to be his own. Gripping the hilt more firmly to keep it from slipping through his damp fingers, he ignored the dull throbbing in his head and kept a level eye on the Philistine as he advanced with his scimitar, his eyes glittering cruelly as they measured Shammah.  

 

The Israelite knew that the Philistine was about to attack, and he also knew that now the enemy would not leave without his head. "Please help me," he whispered, "I'm doing this for You." Then, drawing on a strength that was not his own, he lifted his sword and breathed, "Here I stand."

 

The words were hardly in the air when the Philistine gave a savage yell and dashed forward, waving his sword with wild deftness toward Shammah's head. Shammah ducked, spun around the flying blade, parried a blow, dodged, and lunged for his riposte. His actions were so rapid and fluid that he hadn't a second to consider them, and he found himself staring dumbly at the dead man at his feet, noting for the first time that the death-shaded eyes were different colors: brown and blue. Strangely enough, he felt anything but elated at this observation; all he could think of was his father.

 

"Look up," a voice in his head commanded, and doing so, Shammah realized that three of the Philistines were running at him simultaneously. It had taken them a moment to recover from the shock of their companion's demise, but once they had, they weren't going to lose any time in decapitating their friend's killer.

 

Now poised and on his guard for their attack, Shammah decided to do some attacking of his own. Racing forward to meet them, he slashed madly on both sides, ending resistance there. He leaped straight up in the air as a fourth Philistine made a go at his feet, then returned the favor with a whack of his own. Six were running at him this time, and Shammah wondered how long his body would be able to keep this up, as it seemed to have a mind of its own.

 

"God asked me to be here, so here I stand!" he yelled. "If you want me to leave you'll have to kill me!" He whirled as his assailants started to surround him. Stabbing and hacking with blinding speed, Shammah fell to watching his sword arm with mixed horror and fascination, as if it were detached from his body. Gone was the Shammah who couldn't hold a sword without trembling; he was filled with a power that he knew not of. And as he fought, he dwelt less and less on his actions and more and more on the burning zeal for his God that was contained within him. He would show these Philistines, not what mere Shammah could do, but what God could do—He was the one they should fear!

 

Shammah had no idea how long he battled. Time was as a wisp of smoke to him and as a myriad of Methuselah's life-spans at the same time. Ten Philistines sprinted forward, screaming with rage. The sounds soon attracted the rest of the troop as they ambled up the road in search of plunder. Seeing their compatriots in a fix with a wiry lad standing in a plot of lentils, they rushed forward to prove their own superior skills on this crazy swordsman; of course, all the others who lay dead at his feet were only in that position because their skills were far inferior to their own, and it would be easy for those still alive to finish it. With that in mind, the rest of the band charged into the lentil field.

 

If Shammah had been as big as a house, he would have had some problems because it would have given almost every Philistine a chance to stab him at once. However, as that was not the case, even when he was completely surrounded he could only be reached by a limited number, and it was only a wink and a shove before yet another outstretched sword lay still on the ground.

 

If Shammah happened to wink, it was quite involuntary. He was merely trying to blink out the stinging perspiration that poured into his eyes as he ignored the roar going on inside his head. The smell of sweat and grime blasted his skull through his nasal passages while the dull peal of iron clashed in his ears, but still he never paused. His fingers felt slick with more than just sweat, but miraculously his grip on the hilt never slipped. A red haze clouded his vision, yet he aimed at his shadowy foe with unflinching precision. His aching muscles moved of their own accord, never faltering. Shammah marveled at the strength unnaturally possessed in his body as he pushed off men twice his size, grunting fiercely as he did so. A supernatural energy was within him, invigorating him beyond belief, leaving him only able to emanate silent praises to heaven and to push on as more of the enemy came within reach.

 

As the grueling force of time pushed past him, Shammah gradually noticed that the shadows with which he fought were getting scantier in number. "That's impossible," he told himself. "It's some sort of optical illusion." But when he poked one of the wraith-like figures and sent flying the head of another, he found that no more figures were presenting themselves. He turned all the way around in search of a nearby being, but the only ones present seemed to be lying prostrate on the ground.

 

Clutching his aching head, which was matted with his soaked hair, Shammah waited for his vision to clear. It did eventually, but still not a moving creature was in sight. Where could they have gone? Surely they weren't afraid of him. Shaking the dizziness out of his head, Shammah cast his eyes on the ground for the first time, only to start in amazement. Over half of his lentil field was littered with dead bodies! Numbly he began to count them, and he found that the corpses numbered one hundred and ten. He staggered under the number—had he done all that? He was convinced that he was quite incapable of it.

 

"Impressive," a voice said. Startled, Shammah whipped his sword through the thick air as he turned, prepared for anything. Against the corner of the house leaned a muscular young man. His handsome face was solemn while his blue eyes twinkled, not at death, but at Shammah's bewilderment.

 

"Sorry, there weren't any lions or I would have left them for you," Shammah said, relieved as he recognized Caleb's cousin, David.

 

David's face broke out into a broad smile, "It's a shame you haven't lost your sense of humor after all these years. You'd think that you'd know better by now."

 

Shammah shrugged. Utter exhaustion had just swept over him, and he wiped his sword wearily on the ground and placed it in its sheath, letting his arms fall limp at his sides, his muscles screaming. At the moment, he felt as though he didn't have any humor left in him, as though his battle had just woken him from a boyish sleep into raw manhood and he had left all his laughter on the pillow. He hoped he hadn't lost it forever.

 

David's face grew serious. "Come, you need to rest," he said, coming forward and drawing an unresisting Shammah by the hand. Inside the house, the lion-killer settled the younger man on the bed as gently as if his patient had been a lamb. The occurrence was not unlike a time about five years before.

 

"When did you get here?" Shammah asked, feeling foolishly feeble.

 

"Ah, about the time you were slaying your final man. My fool of a cousin told me that you had remained behind, so I sent a message to some of my friends to come, and then I preceded them to rescue you. I guess you didn't need it," David chuckled.

 

"Oh."

 

"I don't know if you realize it, but that fight of yours was quite something," David continued thoughtfully. "I could use a great fighter like you, Shammah."

 

Shammah turned his head on the pillow and stared keenly into David's eyes, wondering if he understood how it really was. "That wasn't just me out there, you know," he said.

 

David nodded, comprehending. "Oh, I know. That's why I want you."